The Evenstar

bless u little angel!

2005-08-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

Recently I met this little girl who was suffering from serious asthma...
So serious that she had to be hospitalised..
A young little life of 2 1/2 and yet she has to bear with somthing so dreadful as that...
Really heart wrenching to see her...

Yet despite all that, her smile never left her angelic face
So warm like the sunrays on a plae winters morning,
like a bright beam of light where all other lights go out..
she was pure sunshine!

Hmm for some reason, her smile brought comfort to all those around her
for someone so young as she, she taught the elders an imporant lesson:no matter how we are at our wits end, no matter how many times we hit rock bottom, we have to stand up again
and rise like the phoenix from the ashes from which it had fallen...our spirit never diminished!
She was the living embodiment of Athena and Aphrodite..and Of Mary.The angel of innocence ,purity and all things good.

God Bless You little Jolene. Get well soon!

2005-07-27T17:17:00.000-07:00

Nose bleed.....Nose bleed.....

Racial Harmonie Dae

2005-07-22T21:00:00.000-07:00

Woohoo! Racial harmony Day..yest tt is...
Haha... i think its more like a fashion thingy...
haha
colourful man...
lala.... the great thing was our entire class came in full force...
lalala...

Well Done Venus Williams!!!

2005-07-03T02:25:00.000-07:00

Well done Venus!! The most exciting and splendid match of determination and desire for the gold took place this morning at the Wimbledon Lawn Tennis womens Championships..
O,Its the longest match in history too by the way, 2 hrs 45 mins!!!!
At the beginning, Venus was lagging by a game in both the 1st 2 sets against Lindsay Davenport.. 1St set : 6-4(willaims) 2nd set : ( 7(williams) -6) Last set: 9(williams)-7
But eventually she still pushed herself n won the coverted title n not to mention that reaallly beautiful trophy!!
Well done!!!

Actually watching these 2 fine individuals playing in the finals was kinda like a reminiscent for me..( Thou' I m no where near them)
Venus was originally seeded at 14 when she entered Wimbledon this year n she fought all the way to the top..
It sort of reminded me of the first fencing tournament this year, the Novices. I was seeded at 16..
Yet when I saw how happy and emotional Venus was, I remembered how I myself cried too when I won the gold..
It was like I was back there again.. That feeling of disbelief( Omg!!!) and elation...Satisfaction..
I guess after watching that match between the 2 champions I felt this new form of motivation that juz rushed thru' me..

Aniwaz, it was a well deserveed win for Venus. As for Davenport, she put up a good fight to the end too but I guess in terms of mental,she wasn't as determined as Venus was.Plus she had an injury too..
Well done venus!!(thumbs ups and salutes)

2005-07-02T07:26:00.000-07:00

Get Well soon!................

The Touch

2005-07-01T16:37:00.000-07:00

Lalala....This is one of the poems I chose for my lit PC essay...
Quite disturbing cos' it sorts of makes you realise some fears are real..
Overall I think it's interesting.. Loved the way she wrote it..
so here goes!

For months my hand was sealed off
in a tin box. Nothing was there but the subway railings.
Perhaps it is bruised, I thought,
and that is why they have locked it up.
You could tell time by this, I thought,
like a clock, by its five knuckles
and the thin underground veins.
It lay there like an unconscious woman
fed by tubes she knew not of.

The hand had collapse,
a small wood pigeon
that had gone into seclusion.
I turned it over and the palm was old,
its lines traced like fine needlepoint
and stitched up into fingers.
It was fat and soft and blind in places.
Nothing but vulnerable.

And all this is metaphor.
An ordinary hand -- just lonely
for something to touch
that touches back.
The dog won't do it.
Her tail wags in the swamp for a frog.
I'm no better than a case of dog food.
She owns her own hunger.
My sisters won't do it.
They live in school except for buttons
and tears running down like lemonade.
My father won't do it.
He comes in the house and even at night
he lives in a machine made by my mother
and well oiled by his job, his job.

The trouble is
that I'd let my gestures freeze.
The trouble was not
in the kitchen or the tulips
but only in my head, my head.

Then all this became history.
Your hand found mine.
Life rushed to my fingers like a blood clot.
Oh, my carpenter,
the fingers are rebuilt.
They dance with yours.
They dance in the attic and in Vienna.
My hand is alive all over America.
Not even death will stop it,
death shedding her blood.
Nothing will stop it, for this is the kingdom
and the kingdom come.

Yesh!! It's finally over!!

2005-07-01T16:28:00.000-07:00

Yeshhhh!! Finally the exams are over!!
Sheesh, finally the eternal 2 weeks of agony is 0ver....
haha n did i end it with a bang???
Mayb.....
Arghhh.... Hopefully I can do well....
Prays...Prays...Prays...

2005-06-19T20:05:00.000-07:00

Lalala... HAd an awesome time yest! was drinking and havin fun!!
Let me c...
I had a shot of blast 52, a shot of ps I LOve You and a shot of squashed frog...
Like 3 glasses of vodka daisy n 2 glasses of blue lagoon...
hmm i think among all, I love to bottoms up the ps I love you and the vodka daisy...
haha but the ironic part is I fell sick today...
How sway larhh!!
i think it muz b the drinks cos i m now down with a flu and a sore throat!!!

Moral of the story???
Don't drink so many shots of hard liquor!!! (thou, my tolerance level was pretty good!!)

2005-06-17T02:25:00.000-07:00

Everyone has their own secrets and personal space...
We choose to tell some and keep some...
Be it whether its bad or good...
SOmetimes we want to keep things to ourselves bcos its like a little special to us...

So why is it as an adult u cant seem to respect that personal space?

I juz don't understand....

Ranking! Ranking!

2005-06-06T17:34:00.000-07:00

Haha..This is quite funny. I found this along some veeeerrryyy old reader's digest..
Here goes!!

As a school teacher expecting my first child, I had attended natural- childbirth classes.
One of my classmates was in the hospital in labor at the time I was. She quickly requested
drugs to ease her pain, while I self-righteously toughed it out and gave birth aided only by
my husband's coaching.

When the the nurses rolled me out of the delivery room, I spotted a chalkboard. Beside me
classmate's name was an A- ; next to mine was a B+. " Alan, look at that!" I complained to
my husband. "She took all the drugs they'd given her and made an A- ! I did it naturally
and only got a B+ !"

My patient husband rolled his eyes. " Kathy," he said, " that's your blood type."

-Reader's Digest, 3/96-

2005-06-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

SHopping...shopPin....ShoppIn....
YipEEEEEeeee.......

2005-05-28T12:16:00.000-07:00

I just realised...

That what I fear most is to be tied down...

I have been wonderin to myself all these while and searching for an answer as to what I am afraid of..
Is it the darkness? Being alone? Failure?
It turned out that it was none of the above.. What i had feard was the fact that I'll be caged up..
To be locked up in a place until I'm too old to be of any use...
Perhaps my fears are simply irrational but I feel that this is true to a definitely large extent.

Over the years, I began realising that I am a free spirit. Someone who craves for an adventure
, who wants to do something exciting once in a while, to explore the beauty of this world...
Maybe even to rebel at times ( though I prob would nva do that)

That is why I simply just can't stand it when people get jealous or upset ova my other friends!
To me No One has the right to tie me down with who or whom I choose to mix ...
I believe in the freedom of choice because by trying to take control of whom I'm with, does this make me any different from a slave?? No!

To me the greatest form of claustrophobia is to lose my freedom...
My freedom to mix around...

If loss, coldness and anger could be personifed, I would gladly go up to them and be their friend cos' the feelings that I am experiencing now is juz like that...
My soul being consumed whole by the boundless eternity of night...and of darkness..
It is highly perplexing....
Sometimes I feel that i am already trapped... Lost...
Hidden beneath rescue...from the angel above..

If Hope and light could be personified, I would immediately rush oer to them and embrace them,breaking down, for it is these 2 elements that would set me free from all of these recent problems...
They.. R my guardians...

Recently I went to check out my element and spirit...It was of light and fire...
I felt that these 2 are highly reflective of myself for both of them are the embodiment and combinations of the free spirit..
Light is strong and picks herself up from defeat and fire had so much passion in her that it is virtually impossible to tie her down at all...
Maybe this is why both of them gets wronged many times..

So here I am looking at myself in the mirror, looking at myself for who I am..
I finally see myself... with people who so claim to like me ( NOT my parents! ) trying to shove
me in a cage..
To deny me of my freedom...
But I fight back... My guardians finally finding me!
By my side...forever...
Freedom at last...

That's what I see....

Finally I realise that my greatest fear...Is to be tied down by another......

Madagascar

2005-05-28T00:41:00.000-07:00

lalala.....decided to take a trip bk to childhood daes by watching a cartoon instead...
haha...went wth some old friends aft the photoshoot in school which moi deear ol' captain landed spectacularly...into the pond.. (-salutes man-)

well...
madagascar was really funny..entire cinema was cracking up...
haha...but i shan't spoil it...
heres 2 lines which i felt was good :

1) "what are they???"
"They're juz a bunch of panzees!!!"

2)"How dare you insult them FREAKKKSSS????"

haha...

Ah, Are You Digging on My Grave?

2005-05-27T23:05:00.000-07:00

"Ah, are you digging on my grave,
My loved one? -- planting rue?"
-- "No: yesterday he went to wed
One of the brightest wealth has bred.
'It cannot hurt her now,' he said,
'That I should not be true.'"

"Then who is digging on my grave,
My nearest dearest kin?"
-- "Ah, no: they sit and think, 'What use!
What good will planting flowers produce?
No tendance of her mound can loose
Her spirit from Death's gin.'"

"But someone digs upon my grave?
My enemy? -- prodding sly?"
-- "Nay: when she heard you had passed the Gate
That shuts on all flesh soon or late,
She thought you no more worth her hate,
And cares not where you lie.

"Then, who is digging on my grave?
Say -- since I have not guessed!"
-- "O it is I, my mistress dear,
Your little dog , who still lives near,
And much I hope my movements here
Have not disturbed your rest?"

"Ah yes! You dig upon my grave...
Why flashed it not to me
That one true heart was left behind!
What feeling do we ever find
To equal among human kind A dog's fidelity!"

"Mistress, I dug upon your grave
To bury a bone, in case
I should be hungry near this spot
When passing on my daily trot.
I am sorry, but I quite forgot
It was your resting place."

Amityville horror

2005-05-22T23:55:00.000-07:00

Went to watch the Amityville Horror today..
Hmm.... i read the story yrs back n it was pretty scaree..so erm..in a way i was pretty much expecting the same thing in the movie..
However, there were many parts of the horror which was left out..
The toilet seat turning black, the black goo oozing out from nowehere, kathy lutz feeling an invisible embrace etc etc...
yup....
but the little gal seeing "jodi" was there, the slamming of the doors and the windows n george waking up at 3.15 am every morning to check the boathouse was there...
yup... on the whole, the movie was not that scary but there were still a few shocking moments(haha i m still feeling the goosebumps from those scenes : / )
haha wadeva la, at the end, (if u ask me,) I would give it 2 1/2 stars out of 5..

Kingdom of Heaven!!!!!

2005-05-21T19:55:00.000-07:00

went to watch KIngdom of HEaven to day at ps...
haha gt checked for my IC...not once but TWICE!!! (haha so funny, mayb its the medagascar kiddy combo set! hmm...)
yep... loved this movie!!! haha (orlando's in it!!!)
hahaha no larh... I felt the plot was good! yea.... it really deserved the 4 stars rating!

hmm.... however , tho' orlando acted in it, i felt his character was alittle too stereotyical...
he's like the classic hero...
ya but he did a great job at it!
i felt the moz humane , realistic and allrounded figure was the leper king...
thou he died pretty fast but he did create an impact...
ya ( life is short... soul should be in ur mind n heart)
hmm i know this sounds wierd but somhow i felt eva green ( sibila) looked so much like avril lavigne!!! :/ ( i think its the eyes)
haha

bought som stuff too...
hahaha
hey u do look good wif painted nails! hahaha :p
haha n the perfumes...
ya...
hmm...muz drag u for som horror moviez nez....
hahhaahahahahha

star wars...

2005-05-20T21:21:00.000-07:00

hmmm.... watched star wars episode 3 :revenge of the sith today with keith....
what can i say?
well... i felt perfectly neutral bout the movie .....
But if u ask me how i would rate it on a weighing scale, I would say its a little towards the negative side... (sorry to the star wars fans out there)

the good thing about the movie is:
1) The effects rox! (so much magic put into it when filmed it in the studio!!!)
2) The irony of the situation : anakin was desperately trying to save padme when it was him who at the end cause her death!( life's a contradiction I tell ya! n its true! sometimes...)
3) Yoda is pretty cool n so is obi wan!

the bad parts:
1) padme says the corniest lines man: " Anakin, ure breakin my heart!"
actually its not the line, it's juz the way she says it... hahah
2)Mace windu died rather pathetically... arguing so much with anakin bout killing the sith then when he finally decides to kill him, he gets killed instead.... hai....
3)Dooku died pretty fast....
4)captain who adopted leia also said something corny:" My wife and I have alwaz wanted to adopt a baby gal" (hai....)

hahah aniwaz... try to show a bit more concern pls......
don freeze in front of frenz man...
hai tts y i don really feel secure......
sad case....

ya... had fun on the whole! (:
hahha especially applying the testers!(not stealing keith) hahaha
N' eternity! hahhaa....
yup yup

check up

2005-05-09T21:18:00.000-07:00

Went for an x-ray today...
hopefully everything turns out fine!( fingers x-ed)
back still hurtin like crazy
doc said mayb ligerment...
yea...
hey juz wanted to say thanks for bein there ya...
all the smses...(:

Back prob

2005-05-06T12:55:00.000-07:00

pain for 2 weeks liao....
can hardly sit not stand st8 4 too long....
doc said if the pain doesn't subside by mon, i'll have to go for an x-ray...

life...

2005-04-27T20:33:00.000-07:00

haha...
back again aft bein offline for soooo many daes...
hai....
soooo many tests....
man i m so screwin up my life la....
hai...
so much to do...
so little time....
so many probs!
hahah....
aiyah...
muz learn to take it easy...
TIME MANAGEMENT man!!!

hai...

2005-04-27T20:30:00.000-07:00

So uncompromising...
so unreasonable....
expect us the ladies to give way to u every time...
wad is wrong wif yer???!
if she can, i can't!
Dont expect me to save ur ass everytime!
wad is wrong wif yer??!!!

Lyric of the day....

2005-04-16T23:50:00.000-07:00

No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm notI know,
I knowI know this love's forever
That's all that matters now

Finally I'm back again!!

2005-04-11T22:30:00.000-07:00

HAha!! Finally I'm back after being devoided from the internet from sooo long!!!
Yea!!! (com crashed earlier...)

Updated my blog yup! Added a few posts...Ya...
O..I read ur blog today...(U know who you are.. (:)
Really touched by what you wrote...Ya
Thanks(:

Irritance,,,

2005-04-08T00:15:00.000-07:00

Feel I'm a complete failure in everything!
Fencing, Studies,EVERYTHING!!!

Arghh! will you please STOP telling my mum bout' things that I confide in you about??!!
What the hell's wrong with yer??!!!!

God Help MEEE!!!

Novices Team events: Mens Foil and Epee..

2005-04-03T23:00:00.000-07:00

Today was the men's events. The guys did quite well and got to hte semis for the epee team.Yup! HAha..
Got a bronze thou'.. They lost to ITE A(they were on par with them at first..)
Really proud of them for finally winning something!
But after the matche, a certain event from the epee team was trying to buy insurance by asking me if the girls event has so little teams taking part that we were able to get a silver(humph!)
Thank God Mr Kwee came to our rescue and suanned him back! (Take that!)

Really proud of the Foil team today!!! They got a silver!
YUP!!!! Really good match with SJFA tame A and Z fencing!
thou they lost to z fencing by 2 points, yet the anchor JiaRen did an amazing job in catching up the lost points from 36-43!!! GOOD JoB dude!!
Joseph and Junjie did a great job too! Farming RJC in the quart finals 5-0,5-0 and 5-1!!
IMpressive man!!! So proud of u2!!
Erm...don't mean to be mean but there was one whom I felt screwed up totally( A conceited fencer..Finally ego deflated today!) YA...Said I was bad luck to Joe and Jinji juz cos Im a Gal!
Hah! C ! they did much better than u!!
But on hte whole, I'm still proud of the Foil team!!!

On the whole, I think we did a great job these two days!
2 silvers and a bronze! Good Job Everyone!!!!

Novices Team Events: women's epee...

2005-04-02T02:30:00.000-08:00

Today was the team event....
One of thee most disheartening events of my life..
An event which pretty much left me at rock bottom..

At the start, we met RGS team B in the quarter finals. My team consisted of me,mei ying, man yun and val..(yup...the same old chaps i noee)...
Hmm....To me this match with the RGS gals were one of the wierdest that I ve fenced!
I know it sounds so damn wierd but for the first time I was at a loss as to how I should fence this beginner!
Yup! I finally understood what coach meant when he said that beginners are not as easy as we think they are! anywaz, I still managed to do a couple of nice foot hits on all 3 opponents! (yippie) Haha! O! and to top it off, I scored points by literally walking into her!!!
At the end, the score was 45-31.. WASSUPPP!!! (:

In the semis, we were up against SMU team A.
ok, this one actually gave me a heart attack!
Haha! Thei fencing style had changed totally since I last fenced them! (which was months ago!!)
They were using the technique of second intention attack. Yup!
So at the start we were lagging by a bit...
i managed to catch up n' tie.. But it wasnt good enough for me..ya...
Mei ying did some amazing catch up too! ( good job gal!)
Yup... but at the end i think its cos' the 3 of us came up with a strategy and team work htat got us to the finals!( not gonna say what it is...)
We won 37-31!!

Finally in the finals. I was the anchor, this is where i felt I let my team down...
We were originally leading but at the last moment my opponent chanmged blade(thou' it was working) and I lost it...By a mere point..
Hai...I saw the disappointed looks on all of my members' faces...
My heart plunged into a boundless abyss of regret, despair and emptiness...
Nothing seemed to occupy it but the darkness of my emotions...
We were confidant..Alas...
I apologised to my team members...
Yup! the only consolation and pride that I got from this silver is that it was pure, shiny and one that is priceless without a single stain of guilty conscience!!

I still cried when I got home. My mum was there for me, comfortin and consoling me...
Plus that one boy. Yup! thanks for that conversation! It really helped!!
I guess this is one of the most eye opening experience..
Yup! learnt to be more careful...( for many reasons)

Yup! thou' I cant take part next year, I'm still glad that I ended it with a whole new experience!!!

Emotions..

2005-03-21T19:43:00.000-08:00

Hmm...Got my common test results today...
Did really bad... ): hai...
O well, I guess its cos' I didn't really put in much effort in this cts...
Haha...Ya...Gotta start working hard now!!!
Fence hard, work hard!

I donno but for some reason I seem to have lost my flame after Saturday's comp...
I guess its cos' I let it all out on Sat ba..
Hai...Omg! The after comp blues again...
So wanna be rid of it.. ):
Nevermind! I shall be going to fence again this Wed, hopefully I'm able to get my flame back again as well as my form back again!!! Jia You!! (^-^)

Haha! So far the only thing that is keeping me motivated is this Sat's RJ open!!
Yup! Even thou' it is a team event, I'm still determined to go there for some serious farming session!! Hah!
This time, its a gold!!!
Cheerios! (:

'A' Divisions...

2005-03-19T01:15:00.000-08:00

Today was the 'A' divisions...
Hmm....There were a total of 15 fencers from various schools like RJC,ITE, and of course CJC!!
Hahah..
Aniways, I had a pretty good start in the round robins, won 3 out of 4bouts, 5-1,5-2,5-2 respectively...
So yup, at the end of the round robin, I was fortunate enough to get a walk over straight to the quarter finals with 3 others, Natalie, Valerie and Kimie..(Yippie!)
In the Quarter finals, I was to fence this RJ gal..
Won 15-7!!! ( Like I promise you Man Yun, I'll farm her for you!! Take that RJ gal!!!)
Hmm... but in the semis, I had to fence my own CJ fencer..Valerie...
Sheesh.. We both didn't wanna mit in any of the rounds except the finals, alas fate decided it should be otherwise..Hai better luck next time!! (:
Aniways I won 15-14...
Haha... Yup!!! We both agreed that it was our most satisfying bout ever!!
In the finals, my opponent was Kimie...
Lost 15-12...Hai..
Well I didn't really know how to deal with her outstretched arm.. so ya...
But nevermind, like they say no man is infallible so yup! I'll pull myself up and work even harder!!!

Hmm...however, even thou' I did not manage to clinge the gold, yet I experienced something that left me a really warm feeling and a really lasting impression...
While I was fencing in the finals, my parents were waiting for me at the entrance of the sports hall...
There was this sec 2 Tanglin sec fencer who came along and suddenly engaged in a conversation with my mum..Haha ( Bizarre?? HAHA at first..)
She asked my mum whom she was waiting for and her daughter's name( my name)..
My mum told her and she was like " O! the RED faced girl!!!"
Hahah ok that was not the point that I was going to talk about...
The thing was, when she knew I was in the finals, she told my mum this "At the end of it all, it is doesn't matter if it is the gold or the silver, she managed to get into the finals and that makes her a finalist.To me being a finalist is already a winner!"

See,the thing is, I was really disappointed with myself that I missed the gold by a mere 3 points..
For that, I had to endure some biting comments from a certain individual who lost to me in the earlier round( She shall not be named)..
To me, this really IS adding more damage to the already broken soul...
Hence, when my mum told me what she said, all of a sudden I felt this sense of comfort in my disappointed soul..
It was like this sudden light and new life that was given to it!
See, for a complete stranger to come up and say such words of comfort when a certain individual was already ready to condemn me to eternal purgatory really made me feel a sense of peace in my heart...
To me, she was, for that split second like an angel who had come to give a warm hug to the sad and disappointed individuals in the world..

Yup! Maybe I'm just being a little too emotional but for that split second, her words made me realise that even thou' one may condemn, yet there are still others who care!!
( Of course my friends were there, Shan Shan, Joseph,JJ, Pido,etc etc, MY PARENTS!!)
Hahah Yup! with this I WIll PUll MYSElF UP!!!! Promise..

This is my longest entry ever! Yet I felt that I have to pen it down because it simply left such a sense of warmth...Yup!
HAha! With that, I shall end with a God Bless and Good Luck to all those taking part tomorrow!
Cheerios!

Lalala! Mummified!!!

2005-03-18T18:03:00.000-08:00

haha! did some minor updates to my blog todae....
changed the song.. Yup!
I think this song suits its more..
O! Added the archives section as well...
thanks again dude! (u know who u are!)
-Big Hugs-

Went to the docs today for a small tiny winy check up,
Came out looking like a mummy!!!
Omg!!! Lalalala....
Cheerios....

Sadness of War

2005-03-17T13:50:00.000-08:00

Home is behind
The world ahead.
And there are many paths to tread.
Through shadow,
To the edge of night
Until the stars are all alight

Mist and shadow
Cloud and shade
All shall fade
All shall...fade.

The Breaking of the Fellowship...

2005-03-17T13:45:00.000-08:00

When the cold of winter comes
Starless night will cover day
In the veiling of the sun
We will walk in bitter rain

But in dreams
I can hear your name
And in dreams
We will meet again

When the seas and mountains fall
And we come, to end of days
In the dark I hear a call
Calling me there,I will go there
And back again

Revamping...

2005-03-16T12:40:00.000-08:00

Revamped my site..
Yup! Finally found a nice Arwen pic to match the title of my blog..
Changed the music as well...
Its now 'May It Be' by enya, also an lotr theme..
Haha...I'm still hoping to find the evenstar itself (pic of the pendent)
but this will do juz fine!!
O! n thanks for helpin me with this site yest! (u noe who u are!!) (:

"The light of the Evenstar does not wax and wane: it is constant, even in the greatest darkness"

Back Again!!!

2005-03-15T19:20:00.000-08:00

Yea Yea yeA!!!
Back from Selangor at last!!!!
The past few days was a really fruitful one!
saturday was comp dae...
did some really satisfying of farming of Msian fencers! (HAH take that)
Lost to a sporean national fencer though, ruth ngo, by 4 miserable points..
Hahah but... it was a good match cos' she fell flat in front of my feet while fencing! Yippie (:
Sunday was shopping day
had a full 8 hrs of shopping!
Took the monorail to bukit bintang where sungei wang was, den it was to bukit nanas where hard rock was, nez it was to maharajalela for some cheap chinatown shoppin b4 finally heading bk to Imbi where our hotel n times square was...
Yea! on the whole I spent everything that i brought there! (not sayin hw much i brought thou")
Hahah.... i so wanna go agin nez yr!
hmm mayb travel with good frens!
this time mayb to other countries! Paris? London?
haha yup!
At the end, it was a really enriching n memorable trip!
Farming rox man!!!!
Cheerios! (^_^)

some new updates...

2005-03-04T21:00:00.000-08:00

first of all, changed my blog song... yup! love the soothing touch to it...
secondly,arrrggghhhh fsc's postponed!!! wth man!!!
i so miss my medal...sobs...
hahaa
yup! tts about it!

U20s Team event...

2005-02-22T12:26:00.000-08:00

Sat. and sun. we took part in the U20s again..
We met RJ team A first! the fina;l score was 45-24.. Yup YUp!!!
Haha Nez was PRC team A...Phew this was a close one.. we managed to scrape thru by winning 45-44...Phew
However we still lost to RGS team A and got the silver..
Hmm...
among all the teams, i felt that RGS deserved to win cos' all the fencers did their best when it was their turn to fence...
So ya,they truly deserve the gold unlike certain fencers who are sooo dependant on their second fencer..
CJ guys team A got to the quart finals! (good job guys!)
while ITE female team A and male team B got the bronze...
ITE guys team A got a silver as well...

Yup! at the end, the best part is that we were able to come back from the dead again and do our coach, schools and ourselves proud! Good Job everyone!!!

Time is slipping away....

2005-02-18T11:05:00.000-08:00

I finally understood what they meant by the sands of time...
Yup....Nvr been so that busy b4...
Competitions, studies,fencing,enjoyment...
Arghh!I so wanna bit more timeeee!!

O HaPpY DaY.....

2005-02-11T03:39:00.000-08:00

HAha hmm.... chinese new year rox!
collected quite alot this yr!!! Yippie!!
Hopefully I can still collect somore!!! ($_$)
hahaha.....
Some moreee......

CNY....CNY....

2005-02-09T23:50:00.000-08:00

WaSsuP!!! Went visitin todae n got rich!
woohoo! haha yea....
bout 200+...hahah tts so pretty cool farmin of ang pows!
haha
goin for another round tml!!!

May It Be

2005-02-06T19:40:00.000-08:00

May it be an evening star
Shines down upon you
May it be when darkness falls
Your heart will be true
You walk a lonely road
Oh! How far you are from home

Mornië utúlië (Quenya: Darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (Quenya: Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

May it be the shadow's call
Will fly away
May it be your journey on
To light the day
When the night is overcome
You may rise to find the sun

Mornië utúlië (Quenya: Darkness has come)
Believe and you will find your way
Mornië alantië (Quenya: Darkness has fallen)
A promise lives within you now

A promise lives within you now

Sadness....

2005-02-06T19:30:00.000-08:00

U20s..
Was a damn sad day for all of us( CJC,VJC,ITE n' SMU)
Cried in the clementi sports hall toilet n later in the car...
The thought of having let CJ, the coach n' myself down was simply overwhelming...
But..thanks for being there for me guys! Thanks for being there in my lowest n' darkest moments n' thanks for the words of comfort n' support! (:
All of you really mean the world to me!
LOVE YA!!!

My Immortal

2005-02-04T23:15:00.001-08:00

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me

When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Did som changes

2005-02-04T21:50:00.000-08:00

Finally, did some changes to my blog..
change the bkground...yep hope u guys like it...
haha
yea
goin to do som more to it...
haha

My veeeri first!!!

2005-02-04T10:55:00.000-08:00

hai....wad can I say.....
this is my very first entry and yesh, i'm still experimenting wif it..
haha...yupyup...
hopefully things will turn out fine at thee end!
cherios!